I Felt You Near

A sadness in my eyes
Troubled thoughts infinitely wide
Dazed living in lonesome company
Time passing by so slowly

Then I felt Your presence near
Filling my heart with Your love
A lifetime of peace and joy
The promise of Your Word
I felt You near
- 26th March 2007

First wrote this last week, and wanted to post it up here around then, but just got too tired at night to even blog for the last couple of weeks. So trying to make up for it now. Nothing much has changed since the last post. Still a rollercoaster emotionally, and am trying to make sure I stay up for the rest of the sem, till after exams at least. Time is running out, so have to make full use of what I have left to do the best I can. Thanks to Kemin for some advice on studying earlier during lunch. Made me realise something I overlooked all the while, which is to regularly review what I've studied through the mindmaps I'm doing at the moment. Gonna be a long night while I attempt to close up PBF for the week and open up IBM for the coming week. And not forgetting Soci as well. A lot more to go...

Now am trying to save up to get a new guitar. Have my eye on a Taylor 6 series or GS at the moment. Like the figure of maple, especially quilted maple, and I kinda like the sound of the maple GS on the introductory video on the Taylor website. 4 figures, won't be cheap or easy to raise (considering what I'm getting and my lack of time to work). So am praying for guidance on this first of all. Want to move on from the sound of my current baby, so I want something more... always a neverending quest for the sound that you want, from a guitarist point of view. This I learned from the guys over at guitar4christ.com. And from playing Josh's 710, heh. Hope to be inspired from the sound of the guitar to write some songs, especially for worship, and to play for cell (a bit sick of the tone of Eevon's yamaha F310 at the moment, oops). It's kinda funny that one can feel God's presence most strongly when one is broken. But God works for the best of each of His children. And I admit, I've been neglecting what I was supposed to do in the first 2 months of the year. Focus was on something else rather than on God for that period in my life. For now, I have to continue to hold onto Him and let His comfort, peace and unspeakable joy reign in my heart. For the joy of the Lord is my strength. And I know His strength can carry me through all circumstances in my life. Right now, it's my studies. Last chances at IBM and Soci, so can't afford to waste this opportunity.

"Blessed are those who dwell in your house; they are ever praising you. Blessed are those whose strength is in you, who have set their hearts on pilgrimage. O LORD Almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you." Psalm 84:4-5, 12