New Year

Really been a while since I wrote here. Hope it's not becoming a habit. Weariness and work and other things have been keeping me away from my little corner on the net. Had to lend a hand, together with Cassie (junior of mine who's experienced in some tech and backend stuff), to make sure that NYPGC's concert ran as effectively and as smoothly as possible. Dropped by a week before the event to see how were things and provide a bit of advice, since I feel I can draw on the experience I gained when I was with SIMGC and use it to help them. Disasters still occurred the day before the concert, but was glad that they managed to pull off the event, though not without hiccups. Hope they can learn from this and teach it to the next batch.

Christmas and New Year, for me, somehow just felt like any other day, and nothing really special. For some reason, I just don't see the reason to celebrate. Sure, I was running around helping out in church on Christmas and on New Year's eve. Maybe I was just feeling too tired. Had to rush some rose orders during this period of time as well, and hence, I didn't have a lot of sleep. Hope this will improve in the coming days of this new year. Did manage to relax somewhat when I headed up north to Malacca with the unit and some of their families. Did some shopping, watched a couple of movies, and enjoyed myself. Haven't been here in more than a decade, and I feel it's changed quite a bit. Hope to be able to come back here again. I've come to like the place.

This new year, hope to be able to do well in my new work. There's just so much to learn. And not forgetting my walk with God, that it'll deepen and strengthen. I've mentioned this before, that I've relied on my own strength at times, and I need to change this, to really trust in God with all my heart. There are still times that I try to get ahead of God or try to butt into and change what God has in store for me. Have to remember that He is always walking with me. And also, the gifts He has given me, that I'll use them wisely and effectively for His glory. This, I've been neglecting somewhat.

It's been a long day, and I've encountered long periods of frustration that threatened to boil over and test my resolve. It reminded me of Job, when he lost his family and possessions, of how he still held on to God instead of cursing Him, like what his wife told him to do. Or like David, when he was pursued by his enemies and was hiding, and still managed to compose beautiful psalms in praise of God. Their anguish must have been much more than my own, so who am I to lose control and give in to my frustration and anger? I pray that God will strengthen me in this area and grant me wisdom to deal with such situations in future.

"Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him." Psalm 126:5-6