This Is Goodbye

Rain came one monday night
Drove out for dinner the five of us
You held onto me as I
Shaded d' both of us thriugh all the crowd
As we walked side by side
I felt something inside

That day, all my thoughts and dreams
Came together in a single moment
I've found this love in me
And she's standing there
Right beside me that day

Guess this is goodbye..

Got together some inspiration last night hanging out at the Art Cafe listening to Eunice Sim perform some of her songs. A couple were rather sad and groomy imo, which brought me thinking. As I sat on the sofa staring out into the city lights after the cafe closed, I just took out my notebook and starting writing some tags as the basis for some poetry or a short song, and this came out.. This is goodbye

Starring out the window
City lights calling ahead
A sad song on the guitar
A notebook in my hand
Can't believe things have ended
The way they did
Can't believe things
Have turned out this way

2 months of memories
2 weeks of pain
One last kiss on monday
A last hug on wedn'

A broken heart tugs
Feelings kept inside
The thoughts of you
A torment each new day
Leaving a mark

Memories are lasting
But I know I need
Have to leave it all behind
A path ahead I walk
Not looking back
My eyes focused front
This is goodbye

This is goodbye...

Might have to edit it again later. Running out of time to make changes as I have a group appointment afterwards and have to get ready. 9 more weeks to the end of exams, 8 to the start. Need to focus right now, that's the most important thing. And trust in Him who is always there right beside me, to guide me and take care of my cares and worries.

"For David did not ascend to heaven, and yet he said, 'The Lord said to my Lord: "Sit at my right hand until I make your enemies a footstool for your feet." ' " Acts 2:34-35

Gastric, diahorrea, weariness

It's been a week. Still kinda down in the dumps. Especially today. After yesterday and monday evening, thought I'd have recovered, after watching the Pursuit of Happyness. It did cheer me up and motivate me towards my studies and God again. But the same depression hit me like a runaway train again this morning. Or rather late last night. Wanted to wake up in the middle of the night to study for the mock, but found myself shutting off my hp's alarm and going back to sleep till 7 in the morning. So had to get myself off my bed and hit the shower. Then remembered that my mum told me to try and finish the milk in the fridge cos it's gonna expire today. And that's the main culprit of my diahorrea, though the curry sauce I had over my rice during a late lunch contributed as well.

So now, I'm sitting on a sofa in the middle of the student lounge in school typing this. Totally no mood to hit the books to prepare for friday's pbf mock. Sigh. Have to rediscover the motivation that hit me two days ago. Else it's goodbye exams, SIM, sanity, and hello workforce and permanent depression. It's gonna be a long road ahead....

"Sorrow is better than laugher, because a sad face is good for the heart." Ecclesiastes 7:3

Gone

Slow down
2 words she said to me
Tea and coffee, a table for 2, and now...
She's found
Somebody else you know
It's so probable, people move on and...

I had
A kiss in the parking lot
She took pottery, her fingers move gently now
I stare
When she flips through the papers
Her headlines are poetry, and everything's cool...

Now I see her, I won't cry a single tear
I knew she was gone

I found
A hundred and eighty
Pictures of you and me in a faraway place when you
Lay down
The touch of your body
Comin' over me, my face in your hair

See I just heard, I didn't say a single word
I knew she was gone
It's over I will head on my way
And again...

Slow down
2 words she said to me
Tea and coffee, a table for 2 and now...
She's found
Somebody else you know
It's so probable, people move on...

See I just heard, I didn't say a single word
Now I see her, I won't cry a single tear
I knew she was gone
It's over, I will head on my way
And again...
- Gone, EIC

Can't believe 62 days just disappeared, just like that. Simply cannot concentrate on anything now, much less my revision. Spent the whole afternoon at Jon's cafe, crying over coffee and gazing out to the bay from the window, and playing random sad songs on the guitar there. Always very hard for me to handle such a thing. Sigh. Now this song keeps playing over and over in my winamp playlist. Don't really have any mood for other songs right now. Or anything else for the matter. Somehow have to find a way to look back to God once again...

"Give beer to those who are perishing, wine to those who are in anguish; let them drink and forget their poverty and remember their misery no more." Proverbs 31:6-7