Can't sleep..

Right. It's 3.52am on a wednesday morning and I simply can't sleep. Not that I'm not tired or anything, but, more of the state of mind I guess. Lots of things on my mind and wondering how I can clear all of them up. Studies being one of them, started some already, but guess it's not really enough, and Christmas is coming. That's the first warning before the exams in May. Sigh. Should focus more on what's important instead of after the things that aren't, specifically my studies. Also my walk with the Lord each day. Can be a meandering path sometimes, but putting my trust in Him to make it straight for me, even though I just don't understand things sometimes.

A couple of errands of sorts to run later in the morning. Thinking of dropping by nyp to chat with Lina regarding the upcoming concert next friday. Can't really attend that due to my cell commitment, playing for worship. It's one of the gifts I received, I think. Hope to cultivate it further along in the near future. Hope to explore what other gifts I have when Terence initiates the questionaire after christmas. Gonna be the second time I'll be missing that due to things that happen in my life, but the Lord and fellowship is more important (to me). Not sure how it ranks among you, my dear reader. Also, need to drop by Epson's office to submit my timesheet for the month. Looks like it's gonna be a bleak january and a poor Jonathan before CNY. Oh well, better than nothing I guess. Have the incoming red packets to tide me over till the next one in february, which I predict is gonna be a bleak one as well. Working this coming weekend doing demos at Sim Lim. Hope it won't get too boring like the last time. Thinking of dropping it to like 2 weekends a month so that I can focus more of coming to church and fellowship after that. Wonder how it'll work out if I do follow through with this.

Christmas is coming, just received the first gift, from Elicia, which she bought for the entire exco. Some precious moments candy. Heh, yet to get anything for her. Time to do my christmas list and go shop on thursday. That and a couple of birthday presents for friends whose birthdays fall this month. Wondering what to get for the excos and cell and other friends as well.

Coming performance in january is starting to worry me. Confirmation of songs is one thing, players not responding to my smses is another. Lack of a proper plan perhaps? Don't really know. Maybe I'm just too tied with all the things around me. Seriously need someone to help me along in this, for I certainly can't do it alone. And I thought that with the experience of helping to run concerts in the past I can manage this. Guess I'm wrong. Need a team behind me. Time to list out the things to be done for the performance and act on it, and I'm not just talking about the song list. Focus, Jon, focus.

"Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light for my path" Psalm 119:105